A work in progress-check back every so oftenÂ
I think much of my current depression stems from losses to myself and to others, even to God. That’s almost a truism.
What are these losses
- churchgoing-
- priesthood and ministry
- ministry I was called to not being done because of my isolation
- a loss to the fulfillment of the kingdom of which I am part, part of the Body of Christ in the world
- doing spiritual direction, which always produced growth in me
- creation thelogy-
- not only no contact but no giving of love or receiving of it, when I know my need to give love is greater than my need to receive it.
- It stunts my growth, and that stunting is not only a loss to me but to others, and a loss to God
totally isolated from:
- anti-nuke work
- civil rights
- anti vietnam
- anti contra
- all the social work
- just involvement in social issues
- now no way I can go demonstrate
And all the travel time, four hours a day
a gain, reading time
but a loss, I get constipated from lack of rest rooms on the way
sometimes by the time I get to the office or home, i am about to wet my pants
Grieving for these is not only appropriate, but also necessary
But out of lamentation for my captivity and exile in Egypt ought to come action for liberation.
I’m just not sure how to do this.